When this post is published, I am fifty years old.
Go me!
Thanks, Mom!
This website is about thirty years old.
Go World Wide Web!
Thanks, Sir Tim Berners-Lee!
I have spent just over half my years in California versus Illinois. It is where we raise our kids, and where we own our home. Chicago and the Midwest will always hold a special place in my heart, but I have become one of those sunshine people who are just an earthquake away from sliding into the ocean.
Go Bears!
Thanks, California!
Our marriage, like our older kid and our mortgage, not to mention our cats, and my current job tenure, are all just over a decade old. (And the younger kid is closing in!)
I recently heard it said that your first decade is the happiest. But my forties have been really great as well. What makes a good childhood — being surrounded by loving people who support your growth — can really come back to you when you work to be a good spouse, a good parent, a good friend and a good citizen.
Buddy Guy started Down South, picking cotton, as his ancestors had done for too long. He loved playing guitar and made his way up to Chicago. Worked a long time to get The Industry to dig his sound. Got some help from the English, who were more directly inspired by and keen on promoting Guy’s rawer, more energetic style of Blues.
About twenty years ago my father came to town to re-wire the recording studio he had wired up decades previous, and they put him on the guest list at Buddy Guy’s. I joined him and his wife and we listened all through the night, moving from standing around the perimeter, as is common in Chicago blues clubs, to sitting at a table once the crowd thinned. There was a blind organist that Dad’s wife had grown up listening to. It was a long loud night. Afterward we piled into Dad’s car. The wife wanted popcorn shrimps, so we cruised through the night to a stand that sold popcorn shrimp in paper bags.
They had the original Charlie Brown Christmas on Apple TV, which is a sweet little thing I re-watched with the family. But you know what is a Christmas Movie we had never seen before? Die Hard! You know? That is an amazingly great movie. Another perfect action movie. If you haven’t seen Die Hard, go for it. You needn’t wait for Christmas.
Ghost Dog: The Way of the Samurai
Because it was referenced in “Americana” and because I remember enjoying it decades ago … once upon a time, a mafioso saved the life of this weird kid who was into Japanese culture. In the present day, that kid, now a grown man, lives alone on a roof with pigeons, working hits for the mafioso, His Retainer, in the spirit of the Samurai.
A gimmick in the film is when he chats with the Ice Cream Truck man, who only speaks French. They each speak in their respective languages, arriving at the same conclusion. This probably illustrates something relevant about perceiving the world beyond the limits of language. It is a fun movie and I’m glad I watched it again.
The Samurai is a way that is no longer followed, and the mafia in this movie also understands that it has lost its spirit and is also on the way out. Ghost Dog came out in 1999, when the world was changing quickly into the Brave New Digital World of today. It feels like every day, I see a bit more value in bringing back some Older Ways.
Le Samouraï
A loner hitman lives upstairs with a bird. He is very careful about his work and covering his tracks. He steals cars with ease. License plates are swapped. When a female witnesses his work, he takes no action against her. His client turns violently against him. Ghost Dog clearly drew some influence from this 1967 film, where everyone speaks French.
The Cops feature more in this film. Dogged Big City Cops. The boss detective is trying to pin the protagonist down: his alibis are too perfect. But the beautiful piano player lady swears absolutely, this is not the guy.
There’s a lot of hide and seek on the Paris Metro. And vintage French cars with headlights so dull that every not-young person would swear “aha! they have gotten so much brighter!” The plot is engaging, but the movie tends to drag a bit, in my esteem. Yeah, you’re doing a Noir crime chase but a lot of the scenes loiter too long in the dark.
I also learned that the 1967 Paris Cop term for a surveillance bug is “walkie talkie.”
The Apartment
This was playing at Alamo, but the online seat selector said there were no good seats to be had and the weather was crap so I pulled this up on Fandango at Home. 1960s Manhattan. A guy works on the 19th floor of an insurance company: a vast open sea of desks crammed together beneath a ceiling of fluorescent lights. But he has a scheme to advance his career: he makes his apartment available to executives who need a place to bring their mistresses for an hour or two.
This, of course, is a logistical hassle and often a great inconvenience. I like his apartment. Pre-war. Cozy. Nice architectural details. An air conditioner and a pathetic kitchen. Anyway, he has a crush on the Elevator Girl and as his prospects improve so to does his confidence in courting her. Of course, she’s working through her past(?) fling with The Big Boss … long story short, the protagonist comes home to find the Elevator Girl in his bed overdosing on pills. The neighbor, a Doctor, helps save her life and counsels that he needs to closely monitor her recovery.
It was a wonderful movie. Suspenseful and humane. One scene that caught in my attention is earlier when he’s trying to impress her by explaining “I know everything about you. Where you live, your family …” and he explains that he pulled her policy card to learn more about her. She takes this creeper news in stride. Either folks thought somewhat differently about privacy and ethics back then or we’re being told that her standards for decency in men have been lowered below the horizon. Point being that it can be really hard in New York to sort through all the ambitious young men and distinguish the ethical lapses of the over-eager from the bald lies of the truly rotten.
The Hospital
After “The Apartment” Fandango suggested “The Hospital.” Another hectic Manhattan workplace in 1971: a busy teaching hospital. The protagonist runs the place. The hospital is a giant complicated mechanism of endless headaches and his life and mental state are both badly on the slide.
There are people picketing outside because the hospital’s expansion plan requires the demolition of tenements across the street. At one point they have a meeting with the protestors and everybody wants something else. I have experienced enough public meetings to know that scene. Oh and it seems that maybe the medical staff are being carefully murdered.
Pairs really well with The Apartment. This time, the workplace affairs are conducted in broom closets, or, when a patient dies, in an empty bed in a room shared by a comatose patient. Young Doctors have no time for the shenanigans of Insurance executives.
Whether you gauge the temperature with an F or a C, 40-something is nasty. That’s what we had this morning. I rode my bicycle as far as Caltrain, and figured that I could dress better, but I could just as easily hop on the train, in hopes of decent afternoon weather.
Casually sloppy: all these bikes are just riding to Palo Alto.
Today was also our “End of Sprint” which is weird becauce every other Tuesday feels like a Friday? Whatever. I had things pretty well wrapped up by shortly after 3pm, and announced I would head home.
“When you bike home all the way, how long does it take,” asked a colleague.
“I dunno: about an hour? Google says an hour. But I can just ride as far as I feel then hop the train.”
I got outside into around 63F and it was amazing! So, I started to pedal, not towards Caltrain, but home. And not in a very straight line: I had time to meander. A new hobby the past couple of years has been wandrer.earth, where I gradually fill in the map with places I have walked and biked. I pull the phone out, stick it in the handlebar mount, set Wandrer to full screen, and work my way towards home, favoring “red streets” where it doesn’t know I have been.
“This charming old house could fit in my backyard!”
Gotta stop at every Little Free Library along the way. At least half a dozen. And a table of free stuff where I picked up a black light for finding the mystery cat urine. (TMI? Sorry, toots!) And of course, making extra turns and rolling down red-lined cul-de-sacs. Is that a gorgeous house? I’ll need to stop and take a picture. Never went anywhere near Caltrain: things were too amazing out there. But as I neared the house and sunset, I decided some red routes can be saved for future adventures as I would prefer to get home before dark.
“Oh no wait, this is the house, scaled down, that I want to ask an architect to squeeze into an ADU!”
Total moving time? Around an hour fifteen.
Total elapsed time? Near an hour forty.
I gotta take the road less traveled. It is a habit my loved ones mostly tolerate. That’s how you can tell they love me.
Visiting the Upper Peninsula as a kid, we spent a lot of time relaxing on the beach. One time it was told to me that there was a fine collection of Model Ts at the bottom of the bay. “Why would you try to drive across the bay,” asked I? Well, you see, folks had been used to crossing the ice on foot or wagon–it saved a lot of time versus going the long way around in the snow. Unfortunately, combustion cars are heavier than some early owners reckoned, and the ice would give way.
Driving over ice on the road, I have learned, takes a special form of sangfroid. I have recently been thinking about the will and skill with which my people of the Upper Midwest drive over ice, and of how some folks are eager to tell their own version of a story without concern for facts.
I heard on that ultra-trendy news site, NPR, that Social Media is On The Way Out in 2026. What comes next? Well, I kinda like blogs. And I’m not the only one. Joan Westenberg wrote a kick-ass piece here: The Case for Blogging in the Ruins about the long view of how sharing knowledge works and how social media kinda pissed all over things … I’m going to just drop some excerpts …
Before social media ate the internet … blogs occupied a wonderful and formative niche in the information ecosystem. They were personal but public, permanent but updateable, long-form but informal. A blog post could be three paragraphs or thirty pages.
When I write a blog post, I’m writing for an imagined reader who has arrived at this specific URL because they’re interested in this specific topic; I can assume a baseline of engagement; I can make my case over several thousand words, trusting that anyone who’s made it to paragraph twelve probably intends to make it to paragraph twenty.
When I write for social media, I’m writing for someone who is one thumb-flick away from a video of either a hate crime or a dog riding a skateboard. … The format actively punishes nuance, which means that a thoughtful caveat reads as weakness and any acknowledgment of uncertainty looks like waffling.
She explains the origins of Essays: provisional attempts to try out ideas.
Social media flattens all of this into statements: Everything you post is implicitly a declaration. Even if you add caveats, the format strips them away. What travels is the hot take, the dunked-on screenshot, the increasingly-shitty meme, the version of your argument that fits in a shareable image with the source cropped out.
I keep thinking about how many interesting folks have essentially stopped writing anything substantial because they’ve moved their entire intellectual presence to Twitter or Substack Notes. … It’s like watching someone who used to compose symphonies decide to only produce ringtones.
The capacity for hot zingers like the symphonies to ringtones analogy are maybe something we can thank our social media experiences for.
She’s got some advice on what makes a good blog and how to get started, and how to address “the Discovery Problem” with the observation that blog entries get indexed and surfaced over time, where social media disappears. I have to admit, though: since Social Media came about, this humble blog has received about zero comments over the past decade. Kind of a bummer. But the quiet exploration over here in my own space beats The Monetize Everything Hate Machine.
Around the end of the year, I sort through the photographs that have accumulated, and recall Things That Happened. Here, I will share, mainly skipping things I’ve already written about this year.
January
On January 8, I attended a City Council Meeting. Thanks in part to District elections, Sunnyvale sat its most diverse City Council ever. Eileen Le explained how to pronounce her name. Larry Klein explained how, as Mayor of Sunnyvale, he had to try 23andMe (a local business) and consequently discovered his birth family, who showed up to swear him in.
For my birthday, we took an overnight trip to Suisun City, pronounced “Susan” to visit the Western Railway Museum. I had a nice time riding an interurban trolley out and back with the family, then touring a car barn, which featured 1870s New York subway cars that had been refurbished into commuter service for the Richmond shipyards in WWII. They have the last remaining original BART cars, which, due to being computerized and broad gauge, will become static museum displays.
Wooden cars built in 1872, originally pulled on the New York El system by steam engines. Electric motors and controls were installed in 1902. They were in service in New York City until they were brought to California during World War II, to provide commuter service for the Richmond ship yards.
They have a couple of 80s-era San Diego trolleys that were built in Germany, and the control panel features mysterious pictograms that don’t make any sense to North Americans. The computer systems in those trolleys will be hard to maintain. It turns out that it is easier to restore and operate very old trains, because mechanical and electronic parts can be fabricated, much as they traditionally had been across the country. Advanced electronics and computers, however, are not (yet) something that craftspeople can build in the workshop.
The more things change …
I avoided Inauguration Day but I couldn’t help but notice our tech company CEOs made a special effort to show up together to be photographed in the front row. I understand that business needs to make an effort to have decent relations with the government, but there’s a difference between not stepping on the new President’s toes and throwing yourself to the floor to Lick His Heel. What gives? Well, the Curly-Haired Harvard Kid gave us a clue by peeking down the cleavage of his buddy’s trophy wife. He reminded us that Tech CEOs are just Lonely Boys who found they had a special talent for the video game of Capitalism, which can be a rush, but typically leads to being surrounded by sycophants. It is Lonely Boys that swoon hardest for the Siren Song of Fascism. So when these Lonely Boys see that one of their own, a master of the video game of Capitalism, is now to lead the country, suddenly everything makes sense, they forget all that old WWII propaganda, and they show up front row at The Party.
Later in the month, a week after the Pinewood Derby, a fella who was too much in a hurry tried to pass me aggressively. I didn’t cooperate, and he managed to merge into our Nissan Leaf, damaging his Prius in the process. Insurance found he was entirely At Fault and gave us some money to fix the scratches in our car. It is nice to get a check in the mail, doubly so when you don’t mind a few scratches on the old car.
February
Elon Musk gave a Nazi salute. “But did he really?” Well, he was raised by White Nationalists in South Africa, and funds the White Nationalist party in Germany. His new hobby is worrying that low birth rate will “destroy civilization” … because the only group the world is presently producing in surplus are dark-skinned people in Africa. Low birth rate is a challenge for existing models of capitalism, but it is a challenge the developed world is already managing, in part by practicing more socialism. It wasn’t like I was going to buy a Tesla anyway, but March 7 saw my last purchase on Amazon. Since then, really, I have bought Less Stuff, because it takes a little more effort to find things, and those things are generally a little more expensive, generally somewhat less shady.
Nothing here about paying a monthly subscription fee for two-day shipping.
March
I upgraded our not-too-old gas water heater to a hybrid heat pump. A gas line got replaced by a dedicated electric circuit to heat the water with a lot of electricity when the low-energy heat pump fails to keep up with demand, which is rarely. The contractor helped sign up for all the rebates, because it was way more expensive to swap the gas for electric than makes any sense to me. Best I can figure is the incentives mean some crazy marked-up profit margins to encourage the contractors to become eager to help homeowners electrify. Now we’re down to a gas furnace in a mild climate, and the garage is cool in the summer and like a walk-in refrigerator in the winter.
Birthday parties for both boys: laser tag for one, and a bouncy castle and a piñata in the yard for the other. Saint Patrick’s Day at the pub. The older son is nearly Mom’s height.
April
Kilmar Abrego Garcia, a father in Maryland, had been snatched off the street and sent to a Sadistic Death Camp in El Salvador. Kilmar’s story has haunted me through the year, and if they can do this to him, they’ll do it to anyone. I wrote in April:
I debate whether CECOT is a concentration camp or a death camp. It is a one way trip off of this earth into a mass grave. They haven’t added the gas chambers and ovens yet. The conditions are more horrific than what I read from Alexander Solzhenitzyen and the fuck of it all is is that if you’re having to parse your national policies in comparison to the Soviet Union or the Third Reich, you’re already in deep shit.
. . . I wish I was being hyperbolic and overreacting but it feels like the United States is Wile E Coyote having run over the cliff, pausing in mid-air, then daring to look down. It isn’t a Done Deal that we have lost our Democracy and I have some Faith that we’re going to Keep It Together but I am totally freaked out.
The photo of Senator Van Hollen and Mr Abrego Garcia was a relief.
The candle we often burn at dinner, and some of the wax of past candles it wears.
The 12-volt battery in our 2023 Ioniq 6 died. Pretty straightforward, but the car asked to be diagnosed by the dealer, and the dealer took way too long to do anything because they couldn’t open the door because my wife hadn’t given them the metal key that is disconnected from the key fob and nobody at the dealer could conceive of calling the customer to help get the car open. Now I own a jumpstarter battery. Nice to have around.
I took my wife to a nice restaurant for her birthday.
Throughout the year, we have had some magnificent clouds in our Bay Area skies. Too often our skies are a plain blue for weeks on end, but this year we have often been graced with clouds worthy of the Great Plains.
The boys hunted Easter Eggs in the front yard.
May
The Leaf had been missing its rear hubcaps and I ordered replacements online. The car looks sharper now, even with its scratches. I washed the living room carpet in the driveway. The younger kid built his rocket for the Cub Scouts’ Water Rocket Derby. I took Bear Bear to work. I rode in a Waymo. I read about enshittification.
Behold our Cerulean Chariot: the replacement hubcaps help draw the eye from the rusted old scratches.
Family came to town. The elder son earned his second-degree black belt. We dealt with a flat tire on the Ioniq 6. And a flat tire on the Madsen cargo bike. We have been buying the Sunday paper at the coffee shop, because Home Delivery is inconsistent and the boys love a chocolate pastry with the Sunday comics.
I flew to Las Vegas for work.
At the Santa Clara Caltrain station I saw a line of old Caltrain gallery cars parked on a siding, acquiring layers of graffiti as they awaited shipment to Peru, where they may serve on a new commuter line running East from Lima, including a station named Santa Clara.
BART promised in our future, an old Caltrain gallery car from our past.
We went up to San Francisco to watch the movie “25 Cats From Qatar.” We played air hockey at the Pinball Museum.
June
I rode my bike down to the new Micro Center. Since Fry’s went bust, we have been lacking a superstore for geeks.
I hired a company to repaint the front bathroom, whose ceiling was overdue for some love, and also the hallway. I discovered a very cost-effective way to make the house feel more wonderful.
I am very pleased with the shade of green we selected for the bathroom, which works well with the shower curtain and rugs.
On a Saturday, I marched up El Camino Real to protest President Trump, and then Sunday rode the train to San Francisco with the boys to watch “The Neverending Story” at the Roxie and then visit with college friends.
Pink was a bold choice for the hallway but I think it works really well. I painted the interior of the closet door frame myself.
I visited the Golden State Model Railroad Museum in Richmond. Solo. I enjoyed the model trains, wandered through the park, then down along the abandoned tracks along the shore to where the trains once loaded onto the San Francisco ferry.
July
I purchased the Hitchhiker’s Trilogy for the older son to read at Scout Camp. He enjoyed it. I purchased Reamde for myself, which I finished later in Tennessee. For my money, Adams beats Stephenson.
I drove scouts up to Camp Wente and stayed with them for the week. I wanted to get away from the news and while there is a wifi at camp it is weak and slow. A temptation easily resisted. I hadn’t been to Scout Camp in this century or in this time zone, so I was eager to see what was different and familiar. Same canvas tents, but no cots. The baseboards were flat plywood and comfortable enough with an inflatable ground cloth. Private showers!
The food was better than I remember. Tasty and filling. Camp Wente was pretty similar to Camp Blackhawk at Owasippe. Similar dining hall overlooking the lake, Flag ceremonies, enthusiastic staff, and scouts walking across camp to various activity areas, including the same little swimming skills chit cards and rigid check-in/check-out at Aquatics.
My older son taking aim at the archery range.
I signed up for a class for the week, brushing up on outdoor skills, but mainly to socialize. Among other things, I learned the basics of Dutch Oven cooking and a simple recipe for peach cobbler. At one point I was chatting with the woman who ran the dining hall, and she started showing me her stickers and talking about her craft projects and that is when I realised that Scout Camp is almost entirely run by Young People. Young People doing a good job of Running Things. Hell yeah!
I had plenty of idle time and I spent much of it catching up on print magazines. At one point I heard a small animal crying out in alarm. I looked up to see a raptor carrying a ground squirrel in its talons, maybe twenty feet ahead of me over the coast of the lake. The ground squirrel was crying out, venting their objections to the Universe, as the raptor flew towards a suitable lunch perch. Another time I was walking down a dusty camp road when a doe stood before me, and one of her young started butting her abdomen with its mouth. I guessed correctly: nursing time! She stamped her foot and another kid came running out of the bush and the siblings nursed together as Mom looked around. A scout coming from the opposite direction also paused for a moment before the meal break concluded and the deer continued along towards the lake.
Better than a wide-screen TV.
The animals at Camp Wente seemed really calm around humans. I credited that to the Scouts being good guests.
Conservation arises from the perennial human desire to dwell in harmony with our neighbors–those that creep and fly, those that swim and soar, those that sway on roots, as well as those that walk about on two legs. We seek to make a good and lasting home. We strive for a way of life that our descendants will look back on with gratitude, a way of life that is worthy of our magnificent planet.
Scott Russell Sanders
Back in the Bay Area, Google decided they can’t support a thermostat for more than ten years, so I replaced the Nest with an Ecobee. Ask me about this in 2035.
August
We have had a low-key problem at work: we bang a gong to announce A Deal at our All Hands Meetings, but Zoom tends to squelch the gong with its white noise filter. The solution is to toggle “original sound for musicians: on” when they reach for the Gong, to disable filtering, then turn the filtering back on for the rest of the meeting, because our office is a noisy little warren.
Grandma inspects a historic church at Great Smoky Mountains NP.
We flew to Tennessee to meet up with family to celebrate my mother’s 75th birthday at a rental lake house. The time spent with family was wonderful. Tennessee is wonderful and problematic. Some impressions:
I rented an electric car at the Knoxville airport because it is 2025. The guy looked up my reservation and noted that I had requested a four-door pickup truck. Twenty minutes later he convinced the computer that the Ioniq 5 that the system had reserved for me was indeed reserved for me and I was relieved I wouldn’t get to drive a Tesla for the week.
We rented this gigantic house for the family. It was in an exclave of rental houses from different companies. We noted the “Minuteman” rentals each had a different logo of a different patriot with a different gun.
The house had beautiful balconies looking out over a cliff at the lake. I grabbed the balcony rail and gave it a good shake and found it was super wobbly and advised the kids to stay away from the balcony rail. All the houses in the area were built on sharp sandy slopes and I wonder how many years they will stand before The Storm comes through and wipes several into the lake.
We drove to North Carolina for a train ride. There was kudzu covering much of the forest along the excursion route. The conductor explained that they once brought the kudzu in from China, and like the Chinese, it was difficult to remove. I left a one-star review along with a note that while kudzu is Chinese, the US imported it from Japan.
After the train I drove the car to a fast charger that had a QR code to download The App from a European website, that said The App was not available in the United States. Twenty minutes on the telephone and the car was charging. We ate lunch at a place that was still opening, so the menu was limited to what they could prepare in the food truck. Tasty enough. Down the hall my younger son let loose an impressive scream from the bathroom, as the porcelain sink had fallen off the wall and shattered at his feet. He was uninjured but WTF?
There was an Exotic Petting Zoo which had a building full of parakeets who would climb all over you. That was great fun.
We drove down to the Great Smoky Mountains National Park, just for a scenic loop through a historic community. Two churches, and a water-powered mill. There is a house that demonstrated the earlier “log cabin” construction along with an extension built from wooden planks once they got the sawmill going. We saw deer and bears, including a couple of cubs who got to playing with each other a few feet from the road.
We went to a fancy tea place, which was a nice time. My Uncle asked for a straw, and the lady informed him: “this is a straw-free establishment.”
The guy running the roadside BBQ stand was very nice, and he had the tiniest pupils I have ever seen in anyone’s eyes.
A few weeks later the rental car company sent me an email that I would be charged for damage to the car. I wrote back requesting an explanation and some evidence. There was an invoice from a towing company for $45 to repair a tire. Plausible enough and a lot less than I figured.
The greatest treasure was time spent with family.
Window seats are the coziest.
September
The family spent a few hours sitting along El Camino as part of a No Kings protest. We got Pizza My Heart afterwards.
A Conservative Intellectual famous for aggressively debating Liberals was explaining that Gun Violence should really be seen as a problem of Gang Violence. He was then shot to death in front of his audience.
We watched “Little Shop of Horrors” at the community theater.
I got new glasses at a new place. The optometrist talked me into trying progressive lenses. I tried for a week and it was awful. Basically, there’s two places you can look where your eyes might be able to focus nearer or farther and everything else is like trying to peek through a dirty fishbowl. I had them replace the lenses with a normal prescription and now whenever I need to look close I either slide my glasses down to the end of my nose or I just take them off and get a little closer.
Anyone looks good in front of the right tree.
I switched to using Kagi as my search engine. It is like using Google in the old days, before ads. Just results, lickety split. They figured out an alternate revenue model: you pay $5/mo. That might retard the usual corporate slide towards evil. It has all the bells and whistles, including the ability to run questions through an AI. I still use Google Maps for its purpose. Of course, I can not remove or configure the Google Search function on my Android phone, so there’s a Kagi Search just above. A/B testing: I have noticed that searches through Google are followed with targeted ads and content on various websites, while searches through Kagi … don’t. One’s online experience is a little closer to “the world” than a personalized bubble.
The Corporate Offsite was held in Santa Cruz around when Jimmy Kimmel got canceled. The family has stayed in Santa Cruz a few times, at a motel across the street from the beach, but the offsite was at the hotel on the beach. It was a good time and I especially enjoyed sitting at a little campfire on the beach as the sun set.
One day I was walking down the street between my house and downtown, when I saw a vehicle coming my way that looked like a cop car, but didn’t have the lights. I kept my gaze on it, trying to see if they had any lights in the grill. Could this be ICE? Doubtful … but something felt Off about the whole thing, and I watched it drive past me, then circle wide at the light in a manner that implied swollen testicles. The car came up alongside me on the other side of the street, and the lone guy gave me his best menacing look through the glass. Okay, douchebag. He then sped off back towards downtown. I watched as he went, wondering if he was going to take another street to circle around back up into our neighborhood, but no; Whatever had happened between us he had changed his mind, at least for a moment, about doing whatever it was he intended to do in our neighborhood.
For Transit Month, one Saturday I joined a “walk audit” which was a volunteer effort to get folks to walk different routes through the neighborhood and identify sidewalk problems. After that, I tried the cobbler recipe that I had previously tried at Camp Wente in my new Dutch Oven, and shared the results with friends and neighbors at the block party.
The next weekend we had a great time with the Cub Scouts at Mount Madonna, despite damp weather. I made the Dutch Oven cobbler again. We must have counted a dozen banana slugs on our hike.
October
We got new enclosed garbage bins on Murphy Street.
I saw a clip online from Chicago. A man rides his bicycle up to ICE agents in an alley and one agent pulls a gun on him. People in the apartment building yell at the agents to go away, and they stand down and leave. The alley looks familiar, but don’t Chicago’s alleys all look pretty similar? I pulled up an address in Google Maps and yes indeed this was the alley behind my Aunt’s condo. She said she had heard yelling but hadn’t gone to check. I am really proud that my home town does what it can to Resist.
The new protected bike lanes on El Camino in Mountain View and Palo Alto are amazing and wonderful!
I tried the new protected bike lanes on El Camino in Mountain View and Palo Alto. They are a very nice direct route up and down, except trucks, especially FedEx, will block them entirely because the green paint and bollards obviously mean “loading zone.” Also, they don’t exist in Sunnyvale. A modest consolation is that our stretch of Evelyn beats the stretch in Mountain View.
An inconsiderate FedEx driver easily blocks the wide protected bike lane. You can’t fit around the truck without riding either on the sidewalk or committing to a traffic lane on a state highway until the next curb break.
One Saturday, the younger son and I caught the tail end of a protest along El Camino. He ran into a classmate and they sat together on a lawn chair sharing an iPad as drivers passed, honking in solidarity. The next day the Cub Scouts enjoyed their first Raingutter Regatta.
We went to the Western Railway Museum Pumpkin Patch event. It was great fun. You ride an old Key System Bridge Unit to the Pumpkin Patch, where there’s a straw bale castle, pumpkin chucking, a wagon ride, and other festivities. In my book, everything is better with a train.
November
In California, we voted to Gerrymander our Congressional Districts for five years. That sucks but we fear not counter-Gerrymandering Congress would be even worse.
I learned that T-Mobile had contributed to the demolition of the East Wing of the White House, so I switched to AT&T wireless. I also switched our Fiber service from Sonic.net to AT&T. Nothing against Sonic … the service I had been paying a premium for was an AT&T overlay … a service Sonic has since stopped offering … which came with its own support issues. When Sonic rolls out local fiber, I assume I’ll switch back. For now, my bill is down and my bandwidth is up.
When I drink at home, it is usually non-alcoholic.
We wrote a vacation-sized check to the local food bank to offset the withheld SNAP benefits. We also Scouted for Food as we do each year.
On Murphy Street they installed ADA access ramps in the curbs and then began re-laying the cobblestone paths that connect the ramps in a different color of paver. The guy at the coffee shop wondered if they couldn’t just paint the street for a lot less money, then I figured the city probably got a funding grant that required and paid for the change.
We took a family bicycle ride on the bay near the SMART station. The youngest still balancing on his bike, not yet pedaling. After that outing, he became motivated to master pedaling, and he has since become a full bike rider.
The youngest kid begins pedaling. I managed to catch the moment on video.
We went down to Santa Cruz for Thanksgiving. Splurging on the beachfront hotel where we had the offsite, eating dinner at the regular place. We saw butterflies and explored the tide pools and somehow neglected the arcade.
December
I watched as the city re-paved Evelyn and continued with the pavers on Murphy Street. Zareen’s has not yet reopened in place of Murphy’s Law, but soon? I figured out that both the squirrels and crows that enjoy our yard like to collect tasty bits of trash, probably from the adjacent school, and then drop the remains on our lawn. The crows favor foil.
Puma guards the Christmas tree.
We put up a tree, and hosted a holiday party. I helped with the holiday lights bicycle ride which was up in our neighborhood this year. Grandma flew in to spend Christmas with us, and I took sufficient PTO around the holidays to finish writing this. What do you think: was the time well spent? Hit Like and Subscribe and thank you as ever for your support on Ko-fi and Patreon!
I saw a beautiful Cybertruck this morning. It belongs to a neighbor a couple blocks over. It is one of a few licensed liveries the neighbor drives. I had seen him washing it earlier and when I came back around it was glistening in the sunlight. It has a wrap that looks dark green at first but it also glistens in the sunlight, and shifts color as you pass by. This morning, there was a vivid pop of color because a few autumn leaves had come to rest on the shining clean windshield. I stopped and snapped a few pictures.
I don’t like the Cybertruck. They’re dumb. But they’re so over-the-top dumb that they’re kinda charming. Like a pug. Those poor dogs who got bred by dumb humans to look so dumb they can’t breathe. But there’s an accidental beauty in the stainless steel. The stainless steel is among the dumbest aspects of the Cybertruck because it stains at the tip of a child’s finger. Anyone who buys a Cybertruck needs to get a wrap from the aftermarket. That means that every Cybertruck has to be done up in its own personality. These rusting toasters of Brutalist uniformity by their very nature are forced to become objects of individual expression.
CyberTrucks are dumb, and as a result, they are sometimes beautiful.
2025-11-05 Wednesday
I have been in the process of disentangling from Big Tech. I’ve been wary for some time. It was Elon’s “Roman Salute” that left me done with buying stuff on Amazon. Shopping around is a little more effort but that and not just buying random stuff when it pops into my head are both gratifying. Less crap.
A few days ago I took the step of deleting social apps from my phone. Discord, Blewski, Mastodon, Reddit, all back up on the shelf of sitting down at a terminal. More time in my own head to work ideas through. Less clutter.
The monkeys are being peeled off my back. I feel a bit more like myself again. I start to feel like thing are more possible again. Let’s keep the feeling going. More life.
As I walked this morning I recalled an informal life goal had been days where I could spend a little time at the coffee shop, then hop on the train to work. I have this now. I am typing these words at my favorite cafe as my coffee cools. Some days I meet a friend for coffee and those are the best. It took time to get here. A tech job where their greater concern is that the work get done, not that I’m present at an office at a particular time. A home not too far from the train station: a bit under 20 minutes to walk. The final piece came, ironically, with the Pandemic, when management saw fit to downsize from a large suburban office site with ample parking to a hole-in-the-wall near the Caltrain. As a Pandemic Parent, though, I Work From Home three days a week, though I have been spending more of those mornings at The Office as well, to help our growing team find its speed.
Some days I make a new friend or two. Thanks to Rutvij and Amin, the above paragraph took somewhat longer to write, but I still made it to the office at a good hour.
The blustery wet weather and a degree of giddiness from last night’s election have made the morning feel like anything is possible.
Train Dreams
I saw the movie “Train Dreams” this weekend. I dragged the family to a small, nearly-empty theater. It felt like something that deserved a theater screen. It is the story of a guy with no family, who grows up in Idaho near the turn of the last century. He finds purpose when a woman introduces herself to him. They build a cabin by the river and have a daughter. There’s no work to be had in town so he’s a migrant lumberjack. Heading out each season to bring down old growth trees. It is hard being away from the people he loves.
One job with the railroad really turns him off future railroad jobs. When he was young, the Chinese had been forcibly removed from his town. Yet when he was out working, “he enjoyed the easy kinship” among men, whether they came from Shanghai or Cleveland. One day he’s sawing a tie with a Chinese guy and some motherfuckers come around, grab the man, and throw him off the bridge. The man’s face lingers in dreams for the rest of the protagonist’s life.
My grandfather grew up in a sod cabin in Montana, his father a Swedish homesteader. Grandpa wasn’t thrilled with the life out there so he rode boxcars to Chicago, and made a new life with his mother’s English name. There was a story I learned from that side of the family, in Upper Michigan, where logging is a major industry, of a relative, a young man, who got crushed to death by logs that had fallen off a truck.
The movie was filmed last year but to see Americans as migrant workers, amid racial violence … the history of a hundred years ago feels fresh. There’s a very soft-spoken scene near the end of the movie, when he visits a “big city” and sees men in a space capsule on a color TV in a store window. He’s never used a telephone. “What’s this?” he asks the woman next to him. “They’re in outer space.” He then notices their reflection in the window, and she confirms they are seeing themselves. It had been a decade since he’d bothered to look at himself in a mirror. The woman is Asian.
The story is of a guy who lives an unremarkable life that is in keeping with his time. I enjoy the human time machine. “Barry Lyndon” and “Lawrence of Arabia” are movies of men living noteworthy lives. “To Live” and “A Man Called Ove” are similar portraits of unremarkable men. Also in the theme is “Ikiru.” Both “A Man Called Ove” and “Ikiru” have been remade in English. “Ikiru” means “To Live” and the Western version is “Living” which is all to say I am not the only person who enjoys this genre. Even if the small theater is empty when I go.
Bicycle Dreams
2025-11-15 Saturday
I feel that a lot of folks are upset that a few Democrats ended the Shutdown. I share some disappointment. I think the aviation delays coming into the holidays would have created a lot of pressure on the Republicans to make a compromise. Instead the Democrats who signed a deal put their party on a tactical retreat: President Trump was eager to hold back food from poor people for political leverage. (Just in case you haven’t already seen that he is evil.) So, the compromise is we’ll pull back on Healthcare for the moment, and in exchange, SNAP is funded through September, and the government through January. Come January, if the healthcare subsidies haven’t been fixed, there will be a crisis underway for 22 million Americans, and nobody need go hungry when the Democrats stand firm.
Republicans, for their part are like “gee we want people to have heath care but we have to do something about the growing expense! Obamacare is fundamentally flawed! We have to reform it somehow, which we have been promising for the past decade. We have sketches of an idea of how we might could do that.” And I’m like “yeah … Obamacare is what you get when you insist on having for-profit companies stay in the middle of the healthcare system so they can figure out how to save money. You could of course have a ‘public option’ but the private companies (supposedly infinitely superior to the government) said there was absolutely no way they could compete with the Federal government …” Which is to say, the rest of the world seems to have found ways to moderate healthcare costs and the answer is Socialism.
I know a guy whose health insurance premium for next year is set to go up $30,000. My hope is that by March some deal has been worked to end the First Government Shutdown of 2026 that fixes his out-of-pocket costs. But, whomever is paying for it, a family’s health insurance should not be that expensive! Reform is needed, but the current political class isn’t going to deliver it. The best we can continue to hope for is that the government throw money at the problem until we eventually elect decent leaders.
Here’s the deal. I have fancy private enterprise health insurance. One of the local clinics has a soaring central atrium crowned by a Chihuli sculpture. I think there is a decent case to be made that art and positive aesthetics are healing, and maybe Chihuli cuts a deal for a medical facility, but the extravagance, while nice, seems wasteful. I also visit my wife where she works, providing government healthcare to low-income people. There’s no Chihuly. Just the grim cost efficiency familiar to anyone who has spent some time in government services.
There shouldn’t be two systems: one for the wealthy and one for the poor. Whether you write code or hang drywall, you ought to be able to go to a reasonably nice facility and receive the same quality of care. Why is this not the case? For much of our history, Americans have been taught that while “all men are created equal” also “not really” because someone has to pick the cotton and someone else needs to be removed to create new farmland for the settlers. This is why, so far, we can’t have “socialism” — because some people are less.
What the immigration raids are showing, though, is many, and maybe most Americans no longer hold that broken truth to be self-evident. The awareness is growing that “we are endowed by our Creator with certain inalienable rights: among these is life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.” We need our political leaders to catch up with this.
But equality isn’t a concept the elites like. Opportunity for All may be great for economic prosperity but it is no way to sustain the political power of an Oligarchy that writes the checks that fund the elections.
America, we totally can have nice things open to all!
I roll stop signs on my bicycle, for this very reason. (Reasons: stop signs are placed with cars in mind instead of bicycles, it takes a lot of energy to start from a full stop instead of coasting near zero, and bicyclists have excellent visibility.) What happens in Sunnyvale though is a driver sees a bicycle coming to a stop sign and they go full panic and try to yield to me. I come to a complete stop and have to wait as they signal frantically from behind heavily tinted windows. I check my watch. I take a sip of water. If nobody has honked at them I yell “please go already you have the right of way its the law” &c. Then I continue on my way.
The best drivers take their turn. I don’t really care if they come to a full stop or not. Slow way down and check behind your a pillars and make sure there is nobody in your path. Bicycles have no a pillars, just tired meat motors trying to get somewhere on a hot day.
Waiting for the light
My Favorite Notebook
My favorite notebook. I found it in a book shop in Mountain View, near the turn of the century. It was small, like 4×6 or 5×7. The pages were a bit thicker than normal writing paper, suitable for sketching. It was spiral bound, so could lay flat and even flip open all the way. And the cover was rubber, maybe 3 millimeters. It was small and durable and good for taking whatever written or sketched idea came to mind. A wonderful companion to have at hand, especially for a guy whose daily wear at the time included cargo shorts.
Sometimes I contemplate The Best Tool for capturing thoughts. The modern smart phone is always at hand but the interface is optimized for consumption over expression. A paper notebook is less universally at hand, but that rugged little bugger with the thick pages that could lie flat . . . I still remember that one fondly.
Old traveling companions
Monuments of Past Hatred
I caught the tail end of a talk with Jelani Cobb at City Arts & Lectures on KQED. He described a museum in Russia that features Nazi artifacts. Because of what they represent and the blood price paid to acquire them, they are displayed on the floor. He suggested this as a good strategy for Confederate monuments. We should display them to remember history, but pull them off their pedestals and leave them lying in the mud. “Here’s a monument to that war that you lost.”
Remembering the Past
NPR Claims Anti-Fascism is a “Far-Left Ideology”
Earlier this month, President Trump welcomed right-wing influencers to the White House for a roundtable about antifa, the far-left movement or ideology opposed to fascism.
All but one of the rhesus monkeys that escaped from an overturned truck in Jasper County were euthanized, according to officials. “We are continuing to look for the one monkey that is still on the loose. The monkey that got away actually crossed interstate, went out into a wooded area.”
The monkeys, weighing approximately 40 pounds each, are aggressive toward humans and require personal protective equipment to handle.
The Jasper County Sheriff’s Office originally said the monkeys carried hepatitis C, herpes and COVID. Tulane officials stressed that the animals were not diseased or infectious.
I am sure those monkeys have good reasons for being aggressive towards humans and I am rooting for the one that got away to find a nice place to hole up safe.
I was reading recently that “pest control” is not an idea that is universal to humanity, but is tied to a cultural “dominion” mindset and that indigenous tribes often view the different plants and animals as neighbors. Sometimes, certain neighbors are a hassle and need to be dealt with, one way or the other, of course.
I was thinking this “dominion” could be as simple as “agriculture” … when you put a whole bunch of food in one place that you occupy throughout the year, all the neighbors want a piece. But this is your food that you are growing to feed your family. Hell, yeah, it is time for a dominion mindset.
But I don’t practice agriculture. I appreciate diversity in my neighborhood. This morning, my Son pointed out a snail working its way through the the shrubbery at school. Lizards, squirrels, birds … the possums are really weird and so cool. Spiders patrol the house and as long as they aren’t too scary we let them be. If they are too scary we escort them out the front door. We don’t really have pests. We have neighbors.
There is a tremendous cultural shift from hunter-gatherer to agriculture, but our agriculture has been so successful that a lot of us are effectively hunter-gatherers. We follow the Jobs from place to place. We strike camp when we need to. We rely on a web of relationships. We have no dominion.
Since not everyone checks Facebook, a mutual shared in a chat that a college friend’s father had died. I pulled up Facebook, searched for the friend, and his wall featured a link from the brother, of a song that he liked to share to help people grieve. I clicked the YouTube link and YouTube proceeded to fart at me to announce the Good News that there was a new way to poop.
Too much human interaction is being mediated through ad sales.
I have this old friend’s email from before Facebook, so I composed him a note with 20th century technology. I miss the days when you could pull an address up from the White Pages and know where you could mail a card. Some people want to own our communication and too often they get away with it.
Since the fall of Twitter I have found that I enjoy visiting Reddit. Twitter was great for instant validation from like-minded folks for my half-baked quips. I can see why Elon loves it hard.
Reddit, on the other hand, I participate in different forums, each with its own culture. I can chime in and reply to a post with a half-assed snappy comment, and sometimes it lands. But there is a lot more listening and holding my tongue. People are often seeking advice and there is something to learn along the way. And if something is really just mediocre or worse, I can have the satisfaction of a down vote and move along.
Another nice thing with Reddit is that it isn’t as addictive. It is easier to browse for a bit and say “well, that is Reddit, let us do something else.”
The biggest Quality-of-Life advice I have for Reddit is to turn off the default feature where it shows you posts from forums that you haven’t joined but that the Algorithm thinks you might like. That might be helpful for new users, but pretty early on I was like “why is it showing me this stuff?!” There’s a fine interface for finding new subreddits when you want to go exploring.
I have had a home for my half-baked notions all along. It is this blog. Twitter was nice because it only wanted a sentence or two. Low effort. But you know I think it is kinda nice to say “okay brain, that is a cute idea, but let’s just share the ideas that grow into a few paragraphs.”
The other thing with posting to social media is it is about me and my need for validation. Me me me me me me me me! Whee! Aren’t I special? Do I need to interact with normies IRL? Yeah, fuck that. On Reddit, your profile is pretty low key. Every post or comment I read I read on its own merit: the author I barely notice. You are not your profile: you are your words! Where Social Media is about me me me me me me me me me, forums are about a group of people working things out together. Community. We can use a lot more of that.
This blog is about me. It has not been served to you on an algorithmic platter. You have to find and read what I have to say for your own reasons. And I would love to hear from you.
Last night my toe molted a thick layer of skin like a growing snake. I marveled at my human body and its capacity for healing. There are other animals who can re-grow whole limbs of course but if I can get my toe re-skinned in a few days I’m really just amazed. Also, self-interested. I don’t want to suffer a whole lot. A little privation here and there can be good for the soul but … anyway.
Saturday I joined the local No Kings protest. Locally, it was going to be protests along seven miles of El Camino Real between two Tesla dealerships. It sounded a bit flakey to me, and I was going to content myself with driving past and tooting my horn between kid errands. But on Thursday, my state Senator was forced to the ground and handcuffed in Los Angeles and that helped remind me that the Regime is always up to a new level of depraved WTFery.
Sometimes I feel like I need to do something. So I made a sign.
Wife handled the kids on Saturday. I crafted a sign and walked from our place down to one end of the protest and then I walked to the other end. I respect the idea of sitting on the sidewalk with a sign just fine, and along the way I exchanged joyous greetings with thousands of people, not to mention all the honking horns. But for me, I just needed to stretch my legs and move and get it out of my system. It was a One Man March. Well, there was another guy who paralleled me for about 5 miles. And some folks on bikes coming the other way to get amazing footage of the crowd.
I made a sign, then I wrote on the sign. Then I walked over ten miles carrying the sign around. I was granted flags along the way. And several blisters. I love my country. We have a lot of good people.
I have read that the ACLU claims a cumulative attendance of 5 million across 2,000 cities, which would be the biggest protest in American history. The energy that I experienced was huge and amazing. And this in the quiet suburbs. Owing in part to the fact that I walked the length of a line, I ran into a bunch of folks I knew, and missed plenty of others in my haste. But the energy, as I experienced it, was really unprecedented, especially for suburbia. And I have been to a few protests in my time.
2025-06-23 Monday
This morning I had to toot my horn at a Tesla driver who did not understand how a four-way stop sign works. A block later, I had to toot my horn at an ICE driver who did not understand how a green light works. (Put down the damn phone!) A mile later, feeling spicy, I went ahead and flipped off someone driving a blue Cylon Tesla, as they do not understand how Fascism works.
By way of explanation, a “Cylon Tesla” is a model of Tesla with a headlight that stretches across the front of the car. Like a Cyber Truck. This style became available to consumers after Elon’s “Roman Salute.” Most of the time I try to be a pretty chill driver, but I figure if you’re okay buying a car from a Nazi, (and I hope you got a really good deal) you can accept that people are going to flip you off from time to time. A little bit of social friction to make Collaboration less palatable.
I am listening to KPFA this morning. TIL Ralph Nader, 91 years young, hosts a weekly “Ralph Nader Radio Hour.” I caught a little bit of Bernie Sanders speaking in the past few days. When either of these guys or Elizabeth Warren gets going, I feel Grandma Marnie is present. She was old enough to remember the optimism that was raised in the New Deal, which got ground away with much of the rest of the century. These old folks remind me of that optimism, and that un-flagging will to keep fighting the good fight. But what I appreciate most is feeling Grandma Marnie around, and the spirit of her generation. It was that spirit of progress that “Made America Great” in its time, and that is the spirit of progress and optimism which America needs to realize its greatness anew.
I think this country is in a very precarious state at the moment. I think the escalating, accumulating power of organized wealth is snuffing out everything public, whether it’s public broadcasting, public schools, public unions, public parks, public highways. Everything public has been under assault since the late 1970s, the early years of the Reagan administration, because there is a philosophy that’s been extant in America for a long time, that anything Public is less desirable than Private.
And I think we’re at a very critical moment in the equilibrium. No society, no human being can survive without balance, without equilibrium. Nothing in excess, the ancient Greeks said. And Madison, one of the great framers of our Constitution, built equilibrium into our system. We don’t have equilibrium now. The power of money trumps the power of democracy today, and I’m very worried about it. And if we don’t address this, if we don’t get a handle on what we were talking about, money in politics, and find a way to thwart it, tame it, we’re in trouble. Democracy should be a brake on unbridled greed and power. Because capitalism – capital, like a fire, can turn from a servant, a good servant, into an evil master. And democracy is the brake on my passions and my appetites, and your greed and your wealth. And we have to get that equilibrium back.
I said to a friend of mine on Wall Street “how do you feel about the market?”
He said “well, I’m optimistic.”
I said “why do you then look so worried?”
He said “because I’m not sure my optimism is justified.”
I feel that way. So, I fall back on the Italian political scientist Gramsci, who said that he practices the pessimism of the mind and the optimism of the will. By that, he meant, he sees the world as it is, without rose-colored glasses, as I try to do as a journalist. I see what’s there. That will make you pessimistic. But then, you have to exercise your will optimistically, believing that each of us singly and all of us collectively can be an agent of change. And I have to get up every morning and imagine a more confident future, and then try to do something that day to help bring it about.
-Bill Moyers, 2011
There is a new coffee place in town that had a ribbon cutting this morning. I popped by to check it out. Not open just yet as the VIPs were still gathering and I had to get to work. I peeked in the window and saw some fancy coffee machines and no chairs or pastries. I hustled over to my Usual Place, where I was informed that all the chocolate croissants had been sold already, but the owner had set one aside for me. (A big fat one.) I quietly snuck an extra $5 bill into the tip jar.
A few weeks earlier, they served me this amazing specimen, who has so much character the smart phone rendered it in portrait mode.
I have long been excited at the idea of self-driving cars, because they should make the roads a lot safer. I have had the chance to ride Waymos and I think they are pretty great. I have been following the r/waymo subreddit. Lots of discussion about new rollouts, and videos of the robotaxis avoiding tragic situations. Lots of Good News.
I am not one to set cars on fire. But you may have heard that Los Angeles has been fighting against the Trump Regime this past weekend. Along the way, some Waymos got torched. The subreddit has been spammed with burning cars. Someone posted “why oh why would someone torch a poor little waymo car they are totally innocent and have nothing to do with ice” so I take the bait.
[Why?] Trump administration is sponsored by Google. Waymo is owned by Google. Waymo is an instrument of the Fascist State.
For me, pictures are worth a lot of words. Since they appeared front row at the inauguration, Amazon, Whole Foods, and Google are on my “avoid” list, though I still check on the swamp that is Facebook to keep up with the dwindling handful of friends there. I’ve made an exception so far for Waymo, as it is novel and potentially very good. People want to see through the shades of grey for a world of black and white, but every day we make choices. Waymo is good because it can reduce traffic deaths, and Waymo’s corporate parent is a sponsor of the growing horrors of the Trump Regime. Enjoy the ride, but don’t even feign shock that folks are willing to torch a few Waymos.
Of course, I got a message from Reddit.
“Hello, You have been permanently banned from participating in r/waymo because your comment violates this community’s rules.”
Rules, you say?
r/waymo rules: no luddites, no trolls
“No people who provoke … on purpose.” That’s me. Being provocative. Calling out bullshit. “I wouldn’t ever want to join a club that would have me as a member.” I take this penalty as a badge of honor.
In closing: Fuck ICE and Fuck Complicit Tech Companies. We all need to be feeling at least a little bit uncomfortable.
I took three days of PTO, starting last Thursday. Grandma was is town because this weekend was the older son’s Second Degree black belt testing and graduation ceremony. We are all very proud of him.
The first flat tire was on Friday. The Wife got one on the newer EV on her way to work, so Grandma and I went down in the older EV to help out. Along the route, some guys were in the street picking things up. I slowed down and drove wide around. One guy looked at me, leaned forward a bit, and yelled “NAILS!!”
It only occurred to us later that these were likely the same nails that caused the wife’s flat tire. Good on these guys for cleaning up.
Modern cars don’t ship with spare tires. The new EV doesn’t even have a donut. Instead, there is a kit with an air compressor and a bottle of goo. You plug the goo into the compressor, plug the compressor into the cigarette lighter port under the center console, power on, and wait 5 minutes. The theory is the goo will seal a small puncture, you drive a few miles to circulate the goo, then re-inflate, and then drive a few miles more to the tire shop, perhaps. In our case, the tire was off the rim. I later moved the car for the tow truck and that caused the tire to pop back on to the rim. So, next time, I will check if the tire is on the rim and move it to get it back on the rim before I try the goo inflator. At any rate, a tow truck eventually took me to the tire shop, which confirmed that the tire had been properly lacerated in such a way that goo would not have worked. They sold me one tire, which they had to order, and then re-order because they had misordered. The good news is that shipping consisted of sending a guy down to San Jose, and I had towed to a place near the house so I was able to walk home and then have lunch at the taqueria across the street, and then pay $220 plus tax. The tow truck was an $8 line item for roadside assistance on our auto insurance, who I believe will charge us a $50 fee.
Monday I snuck in a short ride on the cargo bike before school pickup. While filling in a bit of my Wandrer, I looped over to Lawrence Expressway for all of one block, and found the rear tire was suddenly flat. I pushed over to a gym which had a bike rack out front, then got a Lyft to school, and the younger son and I rode the bus back home. I later fetched the cargo bike in the minivan. And, given that the rear wheel is an unusual size and I am pretty sure I do not have the right inner tube I’ll probably just take the bucket off and bring the bike down to the shop to mend the flat. I’ll likely attempt a patch in the driveway first, because I’m somewhat handy and thrifty.
2025-05-22 Thursday
The conversation about cameras turned to flashes, and one guy shared that when he was as kid, the flash on the camera made a neat high-pitched noise as it recharged. Everyone agreed that was a neat memory.
I remember as a kid, touching the wall outlet and getting electrocuted. It was a weird sensation. Not pleasant but not exactly painful. I did it again. Yup. I cataloged the experience and moved on with the business of growing up.
We weren’t big on going outdoors. Our generation was the first with Cable TV and the strict admonition that the most dangerous thing a kid could do was speak to a stranger. We weren’t big on sunscreen either. I just took it for granted that whenever we visited the beach I could enjoy peeling dead skin for the week after.
A lot of us died in 2020. In 2025, a great many of us struggle yet to really be alive.
Everything in life is temporary. Except temporary fixes. Those are usually permanent.
Today was pretty intense at work. Debugging federated authentication with vendors? Not my favorite activity. I was hoping to knock off early and work on water rocket derby kits for the Cub Scouts but by the end of the day Cory Booker was breaking Strom Thurmond’s record in the Senate and that was good enough for me.
“My Beloved Monster” by Caleb Carr
I finished a book yesterday: My Beloved Monster by Caleb Carr. At times, I thought, “This is a book about an old man living with his cat,” but it was really a good story about a man’s life and a cat’s life and how, if you care to pay attention to another soul, you can connect. Ambassador Carr spends a lot of beautiful words on a relationship with someone who does not communicate with words.
As I was finishing the book, I made the mistake of checking Mr Carr’s Wikipedia page, which gave a spoiler of the date of Masha’s death, which isn’t too important, really. The book was published a month before Mr Carr’s own passing. He was a good companion, sharing the joy of his journey with Masha. As he finished her story, he noted that she was “already traveling.” I thought of our beloved Maggie, whom we saw off together at the end of 2023.
When the veterinarian makes a house call . . .
Love your sentient companions.
2025-04-09 Wednesday
I just finished “The Life of Fredrick Douglass” by David Walker. It was a Thank You gift for supporting KPFA, but due to trouble with their app I received three copies. I’ll have to donate.
“The Life of Frederick Douglass” by David Walker
Slavery is a hard topic and not one I think I’d want to endure through a prose novel. (We read “Beloved” in high school.) A graphic novel is a nice approach. What was new for me was some of the history. The first people brought over in 1619 weren’t slaves for life. To my understanding, slavery has a long history in civilization as a temporary status. In 1640 three indentured servants ran away from their masters in Virginia. They were captured and the white men had their servitude extended some years while the black guy, John Punch, got his servitude extended to life. 1662 is when Virginia declared that children of slaves would also be slaves.
Frederick Douglass’s story is of a happy childhood with Grandma, then being turned over to cruelty at the age of five, then of learning to read, fighting The Man, and escaping and devoting his life and talents to Emancipation. In the middle of the book he has his freedom, a job, a house in Massachusetts, a wife and a child. In the words of the book, “I knew not then that my freedom was incomplete. If asked at the time, I would have been incapable of expressing the lingering notion that clawed at my soul: as long as one was enslaved, all were enslaved.”
It is not enough for things to be good for the individual, unless things are also good for people generally.
2024-04-14 Monday
I still need to do the taxes. Pretty soon I’ll be at a decent break point at work. While babysitting batch jobs, I catch up on online reading. Darrell Owens is sharing good stuff:
The reason why men with degrees are disproportionately voting to the left globally isn’t due to the content of the education, but primarily the campus experience where you engage with women on a professional, social and personal scale.
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The main reason the gender war stuff only spanned two years for me was because I made adult friendships. When I was 19 years old, I first discovered the then-new pro-housing movement, and my local organization was founded by a trans woman and a non-binary person about 10 or 15 years my senior. I didn’t even know what a non-binary person was, and I didn’t know any trans people at 19 year old. But because of my exposure to these awesome people — who tolerated and corrected me when I occasionally said ignorant stuff — the right-wing YouTube videos of “Trans people gone wild” never convinced me the way it has millions of Americans.
My work with local political groups exposed me to men of all types: seniors, wealthy men, poor men, fathers in their 30s and 40s, depressed men, gay men, happy men. And of course a lot of women of all ages, too. My friendship with these people, especially men at different stages in life that had already gone through what I was dealing with, taught me that this nihilistic, dating nonsense, gender wars was just a phase. It wasn’t even explicit speeches but just clear observation. The married men were generally nice people. The middle class men made money in realistic ways and they kept telling me to stay in college. The depressed and poor men were open about their issues to me in a way that made me comfortable. And having female friends, especially older ones, made it so that I didn’t just see the opposite sex as just for dating.
. . . having male friends in their 40s casually remark when I was slacking around in my early 20s to go finish my education helped me tremendously. To be friends with older men with the lifestyles and families I wanted had a much greater impact than curated social media feeds of influencers.
“I mentally reprimanded my wife for disappearing to the candle aisle; it was impossible to keep track of two kids in this orgy of affordable consumerism.”
–Peter Stenson, “Bone Frag” The Sun Magazine, October 2024
2025-04-19 Saturday
The week has been difficult. It started with hard work, which really isn’t hard. On Wednesday I took the wife to a nice restaurant for her birthday. On Friday I watched the press conference with Senator Van Hollen. I can’t let Kilmar Abrego Garcia out of my heart. A father with a loving wife. A guy who works for his family. He’s anyone in America and he and others get snatched off the street by The Government and sent to a foreign Gulag.
I made the mistake of learning more about CECOT in El Salvador. There’s at least one awestruck influencer video on YouTube marveling at the Security Measures. Okay, sure. There’s also the understanding of 23.5 hours lock down, never going outside, bodies stacked 100 to a cell, zero contact with the outside world. And an admission that these inhumane conditions for “the worst of the worst” are applied to many innocent people because The Dictator gleefully brags that rounding up innocent people is just what you have to do to make the streets safe.
And the President of the United States, after “whoopsie” sending a guy here without due process and then digging in and insisting that Kilmar will just be deported again if he returns, and that he wants to treat US Citizens the same. The Constitution is Dead, in his eyes.
I debate whether CECOT is a concentration camp or a death camp. It is a one way trip off of this earth into a mass grave. They haven’t added the gas chambers and ovens yet. The conditions are more horrific than what I read from Alexander Solzhenitzyen and the fuck of it all is is that if you’re having to parse your national policies in comparison to the Soviet Union or the Third Reich, you’re already in deep shit.
I’m stressed out. I have friends who have pre-arranged their emigration strategy. The wife and I look at each other: we’ll stay and fight. I wish I was being hyperbolic and overreacting but it feels like the United States is Wile E Coyote having run over the cliff, pausing in mid-air, then daring to look down. It isn’t a Done Deal that we have lost our Democracy and I have some Faith that we’re going to Keep It Together but I am totally freaked out.
The photo of Senator Van Hollen and Mr Abrego Garcia was a relief. The man fled gang violence in El Salvador. A US Court found his fears to be credible and allowed him to stay. Then he’s dumped into the prison with all the evil gang members and all the officials involved are bending over themselves to deny any agency at all. The dots connected themselves for me to imagine that President Bukele felt embarrassed at the prospect of having to dig a body out of his mass grave to repatriate to America. A bad look. Fortunately, they had the good sense to keep the deportees separate and then send Mr Abrego Garcia to a less atrocious facility.
These are the standards of April, 2025. Which we would have found unconscionable in 2024. The Pendulum needs to swing. The current trajectory is hard towards a collective national tragedy.
Anyway. What I post to Social Media is Not The News. The World As We Experience It On the Ground is the reality we need to appreciate.
My America is the one where plastic dinosaurs frolic on public fountains.
Nobody reads my blog. And that’s okay. Nobody read my blog when I started back in 1996, either. For about a decade, blogs were a thing. Now they’re quiet again.
Now I am middle-aged, and life is full with family and work. There’s no time and need for a blog. But sometimes I feel the itch. I give it a scratch. Sometimes I look back on what I’ve written recently. It pleases me. That’s all we need.
An excellent headline. This shop is “just around the corner” from where I grew up, at least in Suburban terms. I went to a closer bike shop, though mainly I had access to an on-site mechanic I call Uncle John.
Ross found himself in the city because he fell in love with a Chicagoan and left his old life behind for her. Although she died two years ago, Ross can’t return to the Amish community he grew up in because he was shunned for choosing to marry her, he said.
“I was so blessed to have her in my life,” Ross said. “Even knowing how things turned out, I’d still make the same choices a thousand times over because I had never experienced love like that before. But, it’s challenging to live here without her to protect me. … I miss her constantly.”
Ross has remained committed to his faith and still follows many of the Amish traditions he grew up with. His wife helped him learn to use a phone and navigate public transportation, but she “respected that [he’d] always be Amish,” Ross said.
The couple’s strong bond “developed naturally,” and they easily found ways to co-exist, Ross said. For example, Ross won’t take any photos that show his face, but he got pretty good at snapping pictures of his wife. When Ross proposed, he gave her a ring as she expected. But instead of wearing one himself, he honored Amish traditions by growing out his beard.
Fixing electric bikes helps Ross “keep his mind off things,” he said. He also finds a lot of joy in caring for his dog, Lucy, who he brings everywhere with him.
“I just keep to myself and let others deal with people,” Ross said. “My favorite part of my work is designing a concept, then bringing it off the page into reality, and seeing how happy and surprised the customer looks when they pick it up.”
Relatable guy.
2024-04-08 Monday
2024-04-09 Tuesday
Sometimes your local Planning Commission is a forum for personal frustrations. We call this Democracy.
2024-04-12 Friday
Some people’s best angles are behind them.
2024-04-12 Friday
I was walking to the train station but it rolled up early. The gates came down and the train rolled into the station. A few young women went around the down gates to make their train. I wanted to Follow The Rules and wait for the gate, but experience has taught me that Caltrain can not be trusted to wait. I looked both ways and joined the crowd rushing to board the train. We got up the steps and the train was rolling ten seconds after the scheduled departure time. I have read that in Switzerland the trains depart at 59 seconds after. (I can not verify this information … Swiss trains appear to depart at the top of the minute.) I found an article that in New York, trains unofficially depart one minute after the official time. But I learn Caltrain doesn’t treat the timetable as a schedule and that passengers are recommended to arrive ten minutes before the posted time because trains will totally leave early. (A coworker shared a story of missing an 11pm train that had left early. Ouch!)
Then there was a 35-minute delay at California because of a “trespasser” incident. Someone had died on the tracks. Probably a suicide but I was upset that the railroad’s practices induce reckless behavior. Had I waited for the gate to raise, I would have missed my train, and had to wait 45 minutes for the next train, which was itself delayed another 20 minutes.
My train home departed 30 seconds before the timetable. In Japan, this would warrant an apology. But with Caltrain, passengers could have just waited around for another twenty-ish minutes for the next train. After all, it is rush hour! The train “ran hot” down to Mountain View, where the conductor explained that you could get off the train to catch the express to San Jose, because as early as our train was, it was going to have to wait at Lawrence for the express to pass.
So … why?
After the stress of running across the tracks in the morning, because the railroad doesn’t care about the passengers and then catching sight of someone’s Last Day, I needed to take a walk. I did spy a diesel train pulling an electric trainset up the tracks. The progress made me happy. We’ll soon be running Swiss trains. Maybe we can run on Swiss schedules.
2024-04-13 Saturday
The taxes are done now, which is important because we are having a nice overnight trip with the in-laws on Sunday.
Thursday was nice. Older kid graduated across the Arrow of Light into Scouts BSA. What we called “Boy Scouts” in my day but now that girls can join “BSA” is like “YMCA.” I’ve volunteered with the Cub Scouts so I went down to the Scout Shop and picked up a tan shirt and patches to wear at the ceremony. Baby Adult Leader. The guy at the shop said if I volunteer with Cub Scouts and BSA I can get velcro from the craft store to facilitate swapping-of-patches without having to buy two shirts.
I googled and found lunch at the nearby Uncle John’s, which is a pancake shop in this hip San Jose neighborhood. I ate and walked across the street and visited the Bike Store, called Upshift, formerly La Dolce Vella. They had Bianchis out front but I was curious to “ask about bikepacking” and so I did and the deal is you roll up with a sleeping bag and $100 and they’ll roll out to the State Park in a group and spend the night and feed everyone. I need to get on that.
On my way out through the gorgeous mansions adjacent to the hip shopping district I saw what I thought was an Estate Sale but turns out it was a rummage sale for the local Neighborhood Preservation association. If you weren’t a registered NIMBY it was $5 admission. I had somewhere to be anyway so I left peacefully.
We had Pho for dinner, because it was across from the Auditorium, and because we love us some Pho. My belly is still full from drinking the broth. Elder Son walked across the bridge, and the guys from his new troop adorned him with a fancy new bi-color kerchief. It’s weekly meetings from here on out, but led by the boys, and I have some Tigers to lead. Life is good.
2024-03-13 Wednesday
Last night on the TV, a “man on the street” Trump supporter explained that yeah he would love for Trump to be a dictator for four years. I had to pause the video and rant. “That’s not how dictators work, dumbass!”
I think the majority of Americans still figure Democracy is good and worth keeping but this is going to be a year that tests our faith.
2024-03-14 Thursday
Pi Day. Yesterday, in “Ministry for the Future,” a Science Fiction novel about Climate Change, I got to the chapter where they saw the first anthropogenic YoY drop in Carbon Emissions. They achieve sequestration at 475 ppm. What’s that from where I sit? I looked it up. We’re at 420 ppm, going up about 5 ppm per year. At a constant rate, that is … eleven years from now? 2035? Maybe if emissions start to slow, but they seem to be picking up. (The book notes a decade of levelling, so 2045.) What I saw yesterday was that we’re at 1.6 degrees C, or about 80% to the 2.0 C threshold where we become more likely to hit tipping points that lead to an irreversible transition towards a jungle planet. An uninhabitable zone around the equator, and a truly massive extinction that takes a few million years to recover from.
And the refugees! There are so many already and we’re trying to keep them “under the rug” but the number will only grow.
I live in one of those cool bubbles where … we are trying. I saw that near 40% of new vehicles sold in the San Jose metro are EVs or at least plug-in hybrids. That’s something. Incentives to electrify your house. There are trends around the world that may cause the tide to flip. But will it happen in time?
Last century had the Pandemic at year 18. By year 45, they had concluded The Ultimate Battle Between Good and Evil. Their First Battle started in year 14, and that’s when Putin took Crimea. If the Ukraine Invasion counts as the start of our Ultimate Battle … 2028? This century has been gentler than the last, so far. So far.
In year 45, I’ll be an Old Man, if I am still around. I hope to be. I hope along the way to be a force for good. It is my Sons I worry about. They’re growing into Interesting Times and I hope The Ancestors can guide and comfort.
