What's the worst book Hellen Keller ever read?
A cheesegrater!
fortune has given me that one twice in the past week.
So, what to talk about? I dunno, I'm a bit tired, but more just feeling plain damn lazy. A condition I managed to sucessfully avoid, for the most part, over Winter Break, but this week ... just been sleeping alot.
I'm a bit bummed actually, I'm eager to get my ass outta school, but with no freaking clue as to just where it is I'm headed. I think part of that is that I think I'm likely to end up someplace special - if I apply myself, or at least, unconventional, but I'm really jumping into this whole life thing blind.
Or am I?
Is the problem that my eyes are actually really wide open, and so like a horse without blinders, the whole thing rather spooks me. Blinders? I could charge down the street happy as a horse, but I'm thinkin' too much, which could lead to my own detriment, but if I just have a little faith, and more importantly, self-discipline ... well, I could just make something interesting.
Trouble with these experimental types, they're just as likely to fail, perhaps. Even worse, it takes some moral to follow a different path. That damned old lament, why can't I just be like everyone else ... able to expect the same things ...
Course, all the real people, at least, no matter how normal they think they are they know they don't know quite what to be expecting out of life. Maybe that's why I think the working class is more interesting or something ... yeah, all us kids with College Degrees ... I know finding work is not the hard part for me ... it's finding a life. I don't wanna be a drone.
Crisis of faith? Lack thereof? Maybe something there.
dannyman, you're talking silly!
Yeah, maybe I am, it's just late-night philosphizin;
Sat Mar 28 02:34:20 CST 1998
I'm actually sitting at the far end of what has been a heavily saturated, shared 33.6k uplink ... I said heavily saturated just now but I shoulda said ... err, I mean, it still is saturated, just, well, it's hard to tell sometimes you see?
Anyways, what am I talking about? Typing into lag, yes ... this is something I do well - I look at the keyboard when I type as I grew up learning myself to type into lag. I don't need that immedaiate feedback, having instead a faith in networking technologies and the buffers that serve them. :)
It aint so lagged now though, coz Jessy's not downloading big files I take it. Earlier I could type a whole paragraph and vim, with all the unnecesary colors and coordinate tracking I got activated, could be sentences behind. We're right up to speed here right now though.
Maybe I should get to bed? A promise to type more tomorrow? Perhaps, I got a thing or thorty two to talk about, maybe, if I get in the mood ...
Goodnight, provisionally.
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