18 November, 1997


Stalkers

Tue Nov 18 20:08:15 CST 1997

Unix is so freakingly cool ...
grep journal /usr/local/www/server/logs/access_log | cut -f 1 -d ' ' | sort | uniq -c | sort -r | less

  64 arh0381.urh.uiuc.edu
  56 152.228.63.92
  51 arh0300.urh.uiuc.edu
  48 www-proxy.crl.research.digital.com
  38 jshirk.campus.vt.edu
  31 crawl1.atext.com
  19 na-209-42-27-18.mbsi.net
  17 eesn12.ews.uiuc.edu
  15 wiebolt-mac2.uchicago.edu
  13 ug-mac18.sites.uiuc.edu
  13 aln-58-20.housing.uiuc.edu
  13 aln-58-18.housing.uiuc.edu
  12 d7.dial-5.wor.ma.ultra.net
  11 hb-ta01.proxy.aol.com
  11 carnivean.internal.enteract.com
  10 eesnop1.ews.uiuc.edu
   9 port47.lightlink.com
   9 copper.ucs.indiana.edu
   8 200.247.21.21
   7 rs6000.lewisu.edu
   7 jnclic-162-22.ppp.justnet.ne.jp
   7 isr-28-9.housing.uiuc.edu
   6 ww-to01.proxy.aol.com
   6 scooter.pa-x.dec.com
   6 nh-drseuss.csh.uiuc.edu
   6 kilgore.froghouse.org
   6 d9.dial-8.wor.ma.ultra.net
   6 d12.dial-2.wor.ma.ultra.net
   6 d10.dial-4.wor.ma.ultra.net
   5 ux9.cso.uiuc.edu
   5 ux7.cso.uiuc.edu
   5 ux4.cso.uiuc.edu
   5 tvd0361.urh.uiuc.edu
   5 sfe-nm4-01.ix.netcom.com
   5 poolf7-021.wwa.com
   5 arh0367.urh.uiuc.edu
   5 207.198.48.103
   5 105swright-302.cpm-apts.com
   4 usrns37.dialup.hawaii.edu
   4 ts016d20.sto-ca.concentric.net
   4 ts003d14.cup-ca.concentric.net
   4 ppp14-ts1.pdnt.com
   4 poolf3-022.wwa.com
   4 hoek.sa.enteract.com
   4 deimos.tera.com
   4 d15.dial-6.wor.ma.ultra.net
   4 ccc31.dclink.com
   4 c16-camilla.blarg.net
   4 arh0518.urh.uiuc.edu
   4 aln-58-19.housing.uiuc.edu
   4 ad63-174.arl.compuserve.com
   3 ww-to05.proxy.aol.com
   3 ww-tl01.proxy.aol.com
   3 un-mac20.sites.uiuc.edu
   3 ts010d06.sto-ca.concentric.net
   3 ts006d06.cup-ca.concentric.net
   3 tnt1-37.toolcity.net
   3 shiva-lr23-5.ucsf.edu
   3 poolf3-026.wwa.com
   3 pm3-0-069.apci.net
   3 mchew48.res.mcgill.ca
   3 mcbain.acm.uiuc.edu
   3 maroon.cioe.com
   3 jnclic-162-26.ppp.justnet.ne.jp
   3 isr-28-24.housing.uiuc.edu
   3 d13.dial-4.wor.ma.ultra.net
   2 ww-tl04.proxy.aol.com
   2 ww-ta03.proxy.aol.com
   2 ux8.cso.uiuc.edu
   2 un-pc38.sites.uiuc.edu
   2 ts024d03.sto-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts023d20.sto-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts010d21.cup-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts010d01.cup-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts01-knox-39.skyenet.net
   2 ts009d20.cup-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts009d12.cup-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts007d11.cup-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts006d10.cup-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts004d12.sto-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts004d07.cup-ca.concentric.net
   2 ts004d06.cup-ca.concentric.net
   2 truelies11.dpo.depaul.edu
   2 tk154213.telekabel.at
   2 red2.sqla.com
   2 poolf6-060.wwa.com
   2 p14.ts5.marlb.ma.tiac.com
   2 lew236126.lewisu.edu
   2 hh-maxhead.csh.uiuc.edu
   2 gate2.twi.com
   2 far1028.urh.uiuc.edu
   2 dev3-4.worldaccess.nl
   2 d8.dial-7.wor.ma.ultra.net
   2 d5.dial-9.wor.ma.ultra.net
   2 d25.dial-3.wor.ma.ultra.net
   2 d13.dial-2.wor.ma.ultra.net
   2 d12.dial-5.wor.ma.ultra.net
   2 be-10-2.housing.uiuc.edu
   2 able-30.d.enteract.com
   2 204.32.23.144
   2 204.241.179.155
   2 131.247.240.50
   1 www-fw-proxy1.boeing.com
   1 ww-tq06.proxy.aol.com
   1 ww-tq04.proxy.aol.com
   1 ww-ti01.proxy.aol.com
   1 ww-tg05.proxy.aol.com
   1 ww-te61.proxy.aol.com
   1 ww-tc63.proxy.aol.com
   1 ww-tb05.proxy.aol.com
   1 ws-koe1.win-ip.dfn.de
   1 wilbur-bbn.infoseek.com
   1 wck-ca5-15.ix.netcom.com
   1 user-38lc9m5.dialup.mindspring.com
   1 ts01-knox-22.skyenet.net
   1 tampico.cso.uiuc.edu
   1 spo-wa2-15.ix.netcom.com
   1 sasquatch.dannyland.org
   1 ranma.anarchonet.com
   1 ppp23-sally.atlantica.net
   1 ppp17.iconnect.co.ke
   1 pool005-max4.gardena-ca-us.dialup.earthlink.net
   1 pm98-134.spectra.net
   1 pm056-23.dialip.mich.net
   1 pc43.chestud.chalmers.se
   1 pan.hrz.uni-bielefeld.de
   1 p8-term4-and.netdirect.net
   1 p404448.h.dip.t-online.de
   1 p14-term2-and.netdirect.net
   1 p003fc0.h.dip.t-online.de
   1 over.mhv.net
   1 orl-fl1-08.ix.netcom.com
   1 ip128.z011.glo.be
   1 infral.inf.vtt.fi
   1 hdn107-153.hil.compuserve.com
   1 firewall.uk.dmg.deuba.com
   1 ehdup-r3-14.rmt.net.pitt.edu
   1 eesn27.ews.uiuc.edu
   1 dialup70.mho.net
   1 d6.dial-3.wor.ma.ultra.net
   1 d3.dial-10.wor.ma.ultra.net
   1 d18.dial-2.lwl.ma.ultra.net
   1 d1.dial-10.wor.ma.ultra.net
   1 condor.glas.apc.org
   1 chinook.halcyon.com
   1 cassia.mcc.ac.uk
   1 beltane.wolfram.com
   1 be-10-8.housing.uiuc.edu
   1 archbald-47.slip.uiuc.edu
   1 a19.caboolture.starway.net.au
   1 93.knoxville-01.tn.dial-access.att.net
   1 207.204.69.152
   1 207.0.201.22
   1 207-16-18-206.ndl.net
   1 206.113.194.43
   1 206.102.3.75
   1 206.102.3.69
   1 203.116.85.58
   1 198.112.165.132
   1 195.196.11.133
   1 143.61.250.4

Of course, this is since the beginning of the month. If you are in there, it is as (none).


Just a Drop of Water ...

Tue Nov 18 20:40:38 CST 1997

Now don't hang on,
Nothing lasts forever 'cept the earth and sky.
It slips away,
And all your money, won't another minute buy!

Dust in the wind,
All we are is dust in the wind.

Dust in the wind.
Everything is dust in the wind!

Kansas
Dust In The Wind

Had a conversation with Kat today.

Actually, it was more of a "true confesions" or something. Turns out that truth is being consistent with me in the respect that it is always more complicated than we tend to expect it to be, and that nothing I do with a woman will ever be too simple.

We didn't talk about us so much, rather, Kat told me about her last boyfriend.

They broke up two or three weeks ago ... Two or three, I wonder? Before or after I kissed her? I'm not worrying about the details there so much. LDR. Love ... all sorts of really hard things.

I thought of Rachel.

then I thought more of Kat ... it made things make more sense, all put together, and I always like to hear the truth, even if it isn't in my best interests ... I can't really fault her for not sharing with me sooner ... it is painful, no? she's confused and all. Whatever.

I told her I understood how she felt ... we talked about details for awhile. I told her I'd like to be there for her, or whatever she wanted.

Long and the short of it is that we take a break, some. I think she still likes me, and I know I like her - but you know, I don't want her emotions being mangled together, and on my own part, I want her feelings for me, whatever they are once she gets things more straightened out, to be her feelings for me, and not her feelings for someone else somehow influencing what she perceives as her feelings for me.

At least, that's the verdict in my mind for the moment. I think I'm going to rest on it a few days, before I articulate quite that to Kat ... I value her, and don't want to lose the opportunity given that I've gotten an idea of what being with her is like, but I realize this could be lost, and I want it to be true ... that we would be together as a mutual thing.

Dust In The Wind ...

Just gotta not worry about it so much.

Anyways, Thursday is Prendergast collecting journals. I suppose I should get into Thursday's reading and make some sort of attempt to discuss it here. I haven't really done that so well this semester. i better write a good second paper!

An attractive woman just sat down the computer opposite me. :)


The Devil's Dues

Tue Nov 18 23:32:14 CST 1997

You'd think I could never get any work done. After deciding to up and take care of reading the article for English, the attractive woman mentioned above asked me for help with her paper - I had been teasing Rhetoric Man who was sitting next to her helping his ever-present Slavic friend with her paper that I was cooler coz I was "Professional Writing" and he was mere prose.

Anyways, she caught on. She's nice enough though. Went to Whitney Young! Neat huh? City kid. Maggie is working on a paper about euthanasia ... it has to be ten papers, and she's having trouble with organization.

So after looking over her stuff, and sorting out a few points, and suggesting how to go about organizing her arguments for her ten-page Rhet 105 paper, I snuck off to the South Rec. room for a bit of reading.

I figure I can at least make an attempt to start to try to get this done seriously at least for once, so when Prendergast reads these journals she won't get all hopelessly frustrated at my lack of attention to classroom material. Here we go ...

One thing I particularly liked about the second piece, was that it was informal, and almost in conversation with itself - like a journal. Understandably, I kinda like journals. Hey, you know Ryan is starting work on a web journal - Sung Ho wants to try one out too ... I feel like a trend-setter.

Anyways, so journal-style dialogue is cool ... seems kind of honest you know? One of the points that was brought out in the first work.

I suppose I'll mention what I'm talking about here ... just in case the readers at home are fanatical enough they wanna follow along. Author is .... Donald M. Murray, the articles are, in order, What Can You Say Besides Awk and The Listening Eye. I liked the second one better. The first seemed more like an opinionated manifesto of what a writing teacher, a he, teaching he students, should do, and perhaps more signifigantly, should not do. The second one seemed to have a much less sexist-language tone to it. (Sorry to sound like a PC dweeb ...) It seemed like the sort of piece written by a wizened old dude recounting his years and his wisdom, in a suitably self-effacing and modest style.

My Goodness ... someone was asking me how to cite URLs in APA format!

Anyways, back to the first article ... I got to thinking of my own status as something of a de facto writing teacher - an expert in the presence of others who is asked for advice. It helps if you live in the dorms and use the common computer lab frequently because your room is a Quad and therefor frequently inundated with movies and Nintendo 64 ... I like the role of dannyman as public servant though.

Anyways, how incoherent am I at ten 'til midnite?

Well, yeah ... I don't have the priveledge of making open-ended assignments as the author encourages - teaching writing for the sake of writing. No Tim Skirvin, I do not want to watch Seven. Instead, I'm an unpaid hired gun who goes in to help fix things gone awry.

But I'm not very prescriptivist, and I try to hit the paper face-on and figure out what the higher-level troubles might be ... what guidelines of advice can I give that will help somebody figure out how to fix their problems themselves. Teach a man to fish ...

I also thought about how being a cool writing guy is a good way to meet girls. In fact, it is only women whom I have been in any great advising capacity with in my college years. Kinda neat you know, a cute girl sits down and fifteen minutes later I'm helping with her paper. For her, I hope I gave her good advice. For me, well a learning experience and I get to appreciate for my own bizarre aesthetic, the fact that for some reason I really like the only makeup she's wearing is some crooked lipstick that blends subtley with her lip color. Somehow seems to make a statement. If it was merely helping with Rhet 105 papers that are asked to be longer than she really wants to write, I'd probably be more cynical. As it is, a nice city gal with crooked lipstick makes it all that.

He doesn't correct papers; he tries to diagnose a key problem and suggest some of the alternative ways in which the student may solve them.

Reminded me of Rhet 144 ... ol' man Phil Graham didn't ever say much about what I should and shouldn't be doing, but said like, what I could do ... or, what I could do, or perhaps, what else might be done. I liked that.

There is no reason to identify all the problems which arise when a writer is writing about nothing.

I thought how it can be difficult, when a teacher has wisdom to share with a student about how they might do something which will be a good experience for them to learn from in revising a paper, but the student is uninterested in following through due to time constraints and really just wants an acceptable paper done on time or whatever, and to hell with all this self-improvement baloney that you aren't graded on anyway.

Sounding overly cynical there. I just get ticked at people living their lives by the judgement of others, even if it is necessary to do that for some times in various lives ...

Sometimes I feel as if they are paying for an education and I'm the one getting an education.

I'm sorry you had to come all the way over here this late.

Andrea looks up surprised. Why?

I haven't taught you anything.

The hell you haven't. I'm learning in this course, really learning.

The lessons best learned in life are the ones we teach ourselves. Teachers are guides ... well, maybe I'm getting glossy here ... teachers can provide reference material .. how to do this, how to do that .... but to really learn you have to put the things together yourself, and in something which is so often subjective like writing ... well, that's important perhaps for the teacher to realize, and the student too ... I've at times in my life been frustrated at teachers because I wasn't learning anything from them, when the problem was I was expecting them to do the work, because that's how school is, rather than doing the work myself.

I need a haircut. I should encourage Kat to take herself up on that offer to apply clippers to my head.

A turkey sat on a backyard fence,
And he sang his sad sad tune;
Thankgiving Day is coming, gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble, and I know I'll be eaten soon!
Gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble, I would like to run away!
Gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble, gobble, I don't like Thanksgiving Day!


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