Oh Lord, won't you buy me, a Mercedes Benz?
My friends all drive Porsches, I must make amends ...Janis Joplin
So, did not make it out to Grandma today. Tried calling her to get the scoop on how to get down there, without luck. I didn't wanna risk the van, which has bad tires, but should have better tires after the good folk at Firestone replace them tomorrow. Maybe they replace the shocks too, I'll ask them perhaps to use their judgement.
I had narrowed it down to Sears or Firestone. The Sears people were very friendly, having what seemed dedicated phone personnel. They seemed a little too friendly, a little too aggressive though, and the prices are about the same, or at least I'd figure. I called Sears back to get their price on alignment, and was put on hold when I said who I'd been talking to earlier. I just gave up and figured Firestone's closer anyways.
In retrospect, I can't help but wonder if those Sears people work on comission? Anyways, the Firestone guy answered and seemed almost impatient, like he wanted to get the job done and that's that .... seemed pretty fair and equitable.
You are fascinated, I can tell.
I am looking forward to the return to school.
Heh, I'll share with you my class schedule;
CLASS SCHEDULE - FALL 1997 7/12/97
Course Call# Section Credit Schedule Location
B&T W 261 01268 S1+ LECD 3.00 H 2:00- 3:15PM TUTH 44 ENGLISH
C S 327 01872 C LECD 3.00 H 10:00-10:50 MWF 1310 D C L
ECE 291 02731 N LAB 3.00 H ARR
N LECT 10:30-12:00 TUTH 151 EVERITT
ENGL 302 03389 X LECD 3.00 H 12:30- 1:45PM MW 131 ENGLISH
ENGL 381 03413 Q LECD 3.00 H 12:30- 1:45PM TUTH 148 HENRY BLD
Yeah, Friday looks sweet, one morning class and the day is mine. I wonder yet what I may be doing with it.
Tuesday and Thursday, I wonder how I'll take to those .. basically class kinda straight through from 10:30 to 3:15 .... is my lunch time not sacred? I'll have to figure out something of a "portable" option, which may include sandwiches, or ISR .... to be figured out.
Well, the idea of maybe having the van to myself ... just drive right down, and get parking as soon as possible, being an I-Guide, and therefor an early comer, may hold some advantage.
And girls ... I noticed how when you stop thinking of them, you find one and fall in love? Well we know how I'm a little tired of that paradigm. Linda suggested maybe to get some casual dating action, I should forget about it. Well, it seems kind of a problematic suggestion ... but maybe I think I'm happier try not to worry about girls, not even really linger on their looks, and focus more on my own concerns. Whether this could help me "score" or not is a secondary concern to simply being a more well-rounded and more inrteresting person to myself.
In this way perhaps the shaved head symbolises a more monkish attitude, I think, though I really haven't consciously articulated anything of the sort.
I caught the tail end of an older Japanese movie, in black and white, where the villagers, or some sort of warriors I suspect, as there was the issue of a Shogun falling in love, and who the real victors were ... not the warriors but the farmers they protected - anyhow, the leader dude had this shaved head. I noticed how whenever he had decisions to make he'd reach back and rub it ... I noticed me doing that shortly after the original incident. (Been letting it grow a wee bit ...) Anyways ... that's a sort of dedication ... leader, no hair ... remind yourself perhaps by rubbing your missing hair .... Dannyman, no hair, individual something-or-other, remind yourself, and be pet more.
I've been for some time now "enjoying" cultural preconception that girls are somehow important to pursue. Well, I dunno ... in the old days I really wasn't that way so much. Heck, it took me forever before I really caught on to that whole "puberty thing" in the first place ... "Oh, that's why I like looking at that gymnast girl wearing that tight outfit ... I though I was just thinking ... something else? Oookay ...."
Should I digress?
Well, 'twas forever before I finally had a girlfriend, or to some it would seem forever ... my family seemed the most weirded by it, my sister accusing me of being gay, which I really didn't see as an important issue anyway, still don't ... sexuality? I think I'd rather just experience things as they happen naturally ... I'll appreciate when a lady catches my eye, but not let that appreciation take ahold of me really, I got better things I should be disciplining myself towards. Okay, so back in the day I was an antisocial geek, and considered myself pretty fucked up ... I didn't pay much heed to people whether they had soft skin or not ... I pay more heed to people now, and I think have a more well-rounded and deeper respect for others, emphasizing not only people but sort of nature too. I think I could do well by shifting back to what I find concerning myself more exclusively, and not worrying over the trappings of other's conceptions of society.
Remind me of that sometimes eh? You know, if I seem to slip from this ideal ... I'm going to need to maintain discipline, for a variety of reasons ... I have much I'd like to accomplish, though I don't feel like sorting out quite what all those things are at just this moment.
Or, am I just insane?
Good night folks. It's been ... something.
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